While chatting to a great friend over the weekend he shared the above well known quote by Marianne Williamson. It was shared when I really needed it the most, every word rang true in my mind and was a constant reminder of what I had been avoiding for too long! We run from our fears too often but there does come a point when we get tired and turn to face those fears. That point for me is NOW!
“I Am Powerful Beyond Measure” – I am beginning to see that I AM adequate enough. I’ve struggled, fought hard, worked hard, cried, pleaded with those ‘above’, despaired manys a time to reach the place where I am today. I am ‘free’ in so many ways whereas in the past I felt trapped at times. I am rid of guilt & regrets, I feel peace within and as soon as I sense it disappearing I try my damdest to relocate and reclaim it. There is still a piece I AM trying to fill and that is the Fear of Failure, the fear of not proving ‘everyone’ wrong who don’t believe in me/my ideas but MOST importantly the fear of not proving MYSELF wrong. I believe I AM powerful and it has dawned on me that this IS my FEAR! It is easy to feel inadequate, play small and to continue being & feeling this way. It’s easy to set myself up for failure and have no real expectations. It is my POWER I fear.
“It’s the LIGHT not the DARKNESS that Frightens Me” – I’ve experienced plenty of ‘dark’ days. I believe it’s easy to feel those days in ways and strangely it’s easier to feel these times rather than the times of light. Does this sound bizarre to you? Let me try to explain! Those days where I can see the light I believe fully in myself, my ideas, my talents and uniqueness. I trust that I have so much to offer this world to help change it for the better. This light brings FEAR. The ‘What If’s’ come flooding into my mind – what if people laugh at my ideas, what if I attempt to share my ideas and talk and I can’t find the words? What if I believe in myself fully? What if my dreams do come true? What if my ‘gut’ is right about this? The what if’s and excuses could go on and on. It’s like the devil in my mind. Again funnily enough it is this light that scares me. We all can get far too comfortable in our lives, our routines. This ‘unknown’, when we take that step, that backroad, that leap of faith can terrify us. The light is beautiful but can be daunting. However we will never see it unless we remove those sunglasses and drive down that route!
“I AM Brilliant, Gorgeous, Talented, Fabulous” – Who AM I? This fear again creeps in. Do I fully know who I am, will I feel like a cop out/a phoney? I have no certificate or degree for my Tough Cookie Blog/Children’s Programme? Am I bluffing? Am I talented and brilliant enough to change children’s/adult’s minds/perceptions? Again this is where I HAVE started to believe that I AM brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. What a hypocrite I would be to ‘preach’ to children and adults about loving themselves and seeing their greatness if I couldn’t do it for myself? Do I need that piece of paper to prove anything when I have LIVED through everything I talk about and all that I include in my blog & children’s programme? I AM all these things and more. Only recently have I come to this conclusion and have the courage to see it and admit it to myself. Again, WHY do we not want to express and reveal our greatness to the world? We are ALL unique and on this Earth for a very special reason. I Practice what I Preach. A very important and essential word here is practice!
“Who am I NOT to Be?” – ‘To Be’ : these two words are so important and are at the epicentre of life. We were all born to be, to be ourselves, not to be anyone else. A quote I love comes to mind from Oscar Wilde: “Be Yourself, Everyone Else is Already Taken” Be the best version of you that you can be. You’re a “Child of God” – for me my faith is an integral part of who I am. I would never impose religion on another but let me ask you what is GOD in your life? “God is Good” therefore what is good in your life? If you feel nothing is ‘good’ then perhaps it’s time for a change? To change your ‘God?’ Return to ‘God?’
God can be defined as:
: a spirit or being that has great power, strength, knowledge, etc., and that can affect nature and the lives of people : one of various spirits or beings worshipped in some religions
If you have this God/Goodness where does the spirit, power, knowledge lie? How does it affect nature, how do you touch the lives of others? Life is about Relationships – helping loving each other – “If I Play Small” I am no good to others or to myself. I cannot fully serve this world to the best of my potential.
“Shrinking so Others don’t feel Insecure around You” – I’ve decided I’m no longer going to dim MY light just because others can’t see it, choose to keep their sunglasses on out of FEAR of being blinded by my light. Others may keep their glasses on out of jealousy, anger, hatred and so on. This is NOT my concern. We are ALL asked to SHINE. It is within us ALL, lets all become lighthouses and shine from within and help set that spark off in others. Again if I didn’t shine my light, the light I’ve been given I would be a contradiction to my whole programme for children!
“I am Liberating myself from MY FEARS” – As mentioned above I kept procrastinating about doing a “Tough Cookie” talk/workshop in my locality. Why? FEAR. This is where people know who I am, have opinions of who I am and where I belong in community. It is much easier to stand in front of a group of strangers than a group of familiar faces. I kept putting it off and avoiding it. Again who would I be to preach to children/adults in my blog about facing fears if I didn’t face MY own? It’s easier to hide behind social media and share my stories and ideas than to share them face to face. Which is more heartfelt, sincere, passionate, believable, impacting/effective, honest? I’m hoping face to face!
Come along on Thursday the 24th of November in the Niall Mór Centre Killybegs @ 7:30pm to listen to and see firsthand my ideas for the
“How To Be A Tough Cookie” –
“BE FREE” Programme
Lastly a quote I heard at the weekend which for me sums up why we need to look after ourselves better, see our beauty/talents/brilliance, take time out for self care and to be happy and at peace with life:
If we teach children from the beginning to love themselves, see their beauty/greatness, express themselves, feel their feelings etc these issues won’t get to the tissues and also there’ll be less a need for any Kleenex Tissues!! 😱😂😂