Does your mind run away with thoughts at times? Thoughts that aren’t calming, peaceful or reassuring? Do you feel like sometimes there is a voice inside your head that is controlling your every thought, move, action and reaction? I have that voice and I believe it resides within us ALL.
One of my biggest pet hates is when Labels are attached to people and used for certain ‘disorders’. Yes I understand that there are various conditions/diseases etc that need to be named but I also feel we use these labels and definitions too promptly/flippantly and use them at times as an excuse or a justification for a certain behaviour/feeling. I also feel at times it is a mechanism to AVOID the real emotions and issues that lie at the core.
Anxiety disorders, Bi-Polar, Depression, Eating disorders – the list seems endless. Have we ALL not struggled with these various feelings/’disorders’ at some severity and period in our lives? These terms are so unbelievably broad I feel that at times they are too broad to even use in relation to certain situations/people.
I have struggled at times with feeling sadness and a sense of hopelessness, I have eaten emotionally in response to feelings/scenarios, I can have varying moods within a day, I hear that little voice inside my head (at times beating me up but also at times encouraging me on and motivating me). Does all this mean I have all these various labels from above? Perhaps? But it is more realistic in my opinion and more honest to say that NO I don’t suffer from all these disorders, I instead “Suffer from being a human, alive on this planet facing life’s challenges to the best of my potential”
Anxiety is a horrible feeling. It comes and goes for me depending on external situations in my life. I am constantly trying to develop skills myself to eliminate this feeling and cease it from existing – To nurture a sense of inner calmness and control no matter what is going on around me. It takes hard work, time and effort. Lately while discussing how I can suffer quite badly with anxiety and a sense of panic with a friend of mine she was flabbergasted. She commented how I always come across as very confident and self-assured. I really had to nearly laugh in her face!! It is far from the truth. Yes at times I feel confident and competent but only when I feel able to complete or master something to a high level/standard. If I am faced with a challenge, something that is out of my comfort zone and out of my capabilities the impending anxiety and fear can be atrocious. It can cause my breathing to quicken and I begin to imagine the worst eventualities (which usually involve me failing miserably at the task in question and making a complete show of myself/being ridiculed and having such an enormous sense of failure) does this happen? Usually never! Does that stop it from happening repeatedly within my mind? No! But I am trying to equip myself more with the skills needed to eliminate it from my life for good.
I believe this anxiety and these fears are always very deeply rooted to a memory or experience within ones childhood. I can vouch that this is most definitely true for my situation.
Know you’re not alone, we all have that inner voice, those insecurities and those times when we feel inferior, incapable and just not ‘good enough’. Begin today to change the dialogue within your head, talk in a loving tone to yourself, say out loud how capable you are and that no matter what life throws at you, “You’ll handle it!” We must ACCEPT who we are and be at peace within ourselves. Each and every one of us IS GOOD ENOUGH and more than enough.
Life’s too short to fight a constant battle with yourself. You’ll never win unless you silence that inner voice of negativity, doubt, fear and hatred.
“Close the Door
It’s Time to Say “NO MORE”
Bolted At Last
It’s in the Past!
Knock Knock, Who’s There?
Peace, Joy, Love; No Need to Beware!
That Door Tightly Shut
You’re Out of that Rut!